Gloom!

It's hard not to be even a bit concerned about what is happening in the world today, not even the world your country, your community. Tax hike, violence increasing, wars, political turmoil and tension, unemployment, poverty, disease, religious confusion, natural disasters, accidents, and the list goes on. We face each day like it can't happen to us it just happens to those other people. It is clear in the Bible that these things will happen near the close of Earth's history. Where is safe on this planet now, where can you go and be free of all this filt? The only place that looks feasible now is somewhere above. Its a scary world, some people are just dying from fear alone. What are we living for; only to suffer and die? There has to be something better, has to be. Heaven is the only other place, whether you believe its just a utopia created by the human mind to fill the heart with hope, it is still real. Heaven has to live up to the hype, it can't be nothing but perfect. We have to give up this hell hole and its vices and cling to what is true and pure. The urgency should be clear and present in all our hearts that we need to follow Jesus' teachings in the Bible. No longer can the word of God be boring and uninteresting to us, if we plan to live forever with God He can't be boring to us now or we don't have a part with Him in paradise (paradise would be boring). What is left is truth, absolute truth, that we have to hold on to or we will be lost with the passing of time. It sounds like doom and gloom and if it doesn't to you then I guess your heaven is here on Earth.

No Pain No Gain!

It is without any doubt that everyone has heard this expression before, where did it originate from, is it a fact? There are those who are wealthy because of trust funds, lottery, they didn't face any pain to gain. Is it only relating to wealth - material things? What about the other things in life like family, friends, peace of mind, health, relationships, good looks? Aren't these things things that we all want at some point or another? Is it only the things we want the most that we have to face pain to get them? I wonder about this because you have wealthy and well off people with family and the world to look forward to and they take their own lives or they are depressed. No pain no gain - its awfully tempting to take the easy way to what you want to gain, really now, who likes to feel pain (well apart from Masochistic people). Goals and aspirations are developed in each and every person, the levels, whether high or low, one would take to achieve them will in most cases cause some form of pain if the reality is no pain no gain. Why is this so, because of sin for sure, but who perpetuates it - we ofcourse. We make it harder for each other to achieve their goals - either because we are resentful, jealous, uncaring, stubborn, you name it we do it to others and make the expression no pain no gain a reality. The beauty is that through trials the victor comes out stronger and wiser, that sure will make some more bitter towards the victor. Its hard enough as it is living in this sinful world, but if we think about it we are the ones the devil use to make it harder for each other. No pain no gain - its sad too that some who end of gaining through the pain become selfish and lacking in trust. The pain has allowed them to gain but to what price, have their values and personalities changed for the better or the worst? My question is; is the pain allways wort the gain at the end.

The Missing Feeling.

I have come to realize a fact at a very early age the power of missing something or someone. It never really dawned on me until in later youth that the heart or mind can be so attached to something or someone that if or when it is no longer there you are tormented with grief or despair. We are programmed to first preserve self but why then this feeling of depression (whether mild or severe) any time the external object or life form becomes absent? Why am i helpless toward this feeling, why are we so connected with invisible lines of trust, love, hate, sexuality, that when it is severed or stretched too tin it brakes or stresses the spirit of the heart and mind that it can even leed to depression. I get to understand that on a journey it is most times shorter and sweeter when traveled with someone else but its longer and harder when traveled alone, i guess that could be applied to life in a sense. The cords we bond ourselves with one to another whether we realize it or not are formed, strenghted, or broken each day as we come in contact with each other or lack of it, which ever it is. By design we are like this, its in our nature, and its in nature. Creatures bond in groups, packs, schools, even those who are solitary most of the times seek another at one point or another. This bond we are compelled by nature to make, we have no control over it, will always push us to bond. The issue here though is the braking of the bond, whether permanent or temporarily, distorts the balance acheived in the past and drops the nuclear bomb of loneliness on the Hiroshima of our hearts.

What Is The Meaning of Life?

Life, a complex array of cells in an entity depending on external forces to remain active. The result therefore is interaction with other life forms in a life pool. Moments of change influenced by climate, interaction, time, decisions, makes up the sweet, bitter, or tasteless reactions of cells being affected by one or all of the above mentioned influences. Life in some eyes might be a journey, every journey must end one way or another. Meaning means evident, and to be inferred. So, the meaning of life could be translated as the evident of life which goes back to really exisiting which goes back to life which then takes you back to the meaning of it, hmm. We were created, but some may argue that they evolved, anyways, God created us. The meaning of life should therefore iterate why we were created in the first place, which is you might ask. We are fearfully and wonderfully made by God, but why, was He lonely, what? To glorify Him and rejoice with Him (Eph. 1:11,12 and 1 Cor. 11:1). From what I have read in the Bible and the promises He made to us we are lucky to be created at all. We have the priviledge of sharing paradise with God forever instead of not exisitng at all. The meaning of life, I feel safe in saying, is a journey to the end which really is the beginning of eternity which is the absent of time being perpetuated by ectasy.

Suicide(.)

A guy I knew took his life last Sunday. It rests on my mind constantly since then. My mind is like a vortex of thoughts and questions, swirling in the mist of doubt and insecurities. He was no older than i am, he had everything he needed or so it seemed. Money problems was ruled out - he had alot of that - and so the illimation of what drove him to do it continues. I had to let God know that it seems like the devil is winning, but I know I am wrong. I was a couple of feet away from where he had done it, I didn't hear the shot because the music was too loud. I was only alerted by the cry of pain and disbelief. It drives deeper and deeper the fact that this world could never be my home, impossible for me to accept this as home. I look to the only true and real thing I know - God, but it scares me to know that no matter how much you look to God their are things in this world that I fall in love with, people I trust. These earthly things and people can and probably will fail me but I pray that God will be by my side throughout it all. The Bible speaks indirectly about suicide but it certainly states that their is hope in God - so a suicide will not make it to Heaven then. I reach deep inside the innermost parts of my mind trying to find if their is something I deem so important on this pile of dump we call earth that if I loose it I will feel hopelessly lost. I am forced to ask myself questions that I never knew even existed, to look within and around. Its scary to hope, its hard to hope and then to lose it after you put everything you have into it - I am tempted to run from what I see in my heart as being true because I don't want it to change or to destroy me if it does. It leaves me to first look to God - let your hope remain in me forever God, that's what I ask.