Family Tests?!

My Grandmother fell down yesterday and hurt herself, she has osteoporosis . It pains my heart when I see her in pain - I wish that there was something I could just do to stop all the hurting and let her feel well. Jesus healed alot of ailments while walking the earth and He still continues to this day I believe with all my heart, I pray and hope that he will smile on her and take care of her for me cause I am just a helpless human. My family is important to me, even though I never really grew up with them. It's a peaceful assuring thought to know that all your folks are in good health and safe. I don't worry about my own safety that much to tell you the truth. I try to keep a close walk with God and whatever He allows to happen is for the good of us His people. She has been like a mother to me, since I grew up with her and my grandfather. My grandfather passed a number of years ago and that was very hard for me to carry. This experience reminds me about that time in my life when I lost my grandpa, I tend to hold things in alot and in so doing burdens become too heavy for me to bear and all I can do is cry out to God when my cup if filled and overflowing. I have searched many times for God - show me a sign that you exist, let me see an angel like prophets of old, show me a vision. I haven't seen the last two as yet but He definitely exists I have come to find out. It's embaracing to call on Him only in times of need, like some so call friends treat us. I want Him to be close and dear, I want to always call upon Him first and foremost. This world is not my home, it's full of; sickness, pain, hate, war, crime, jealousy, envy, malice, lies, pestilence, disasters, short hard life, the list goes on and on. My focus is Heaven bound where I will meet my grandpa again, and most importantly I will meet my Lord and Saviour - the one who died for me knowing that I would one day still hurt Him. The journey the Bible says is "...strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.” (Mt. 7:13-14). I want to be one of the few that finds it and I want to bring my family, friends, and everyone I come in contact with with me down the right and true way. It's the reason why I search for the truth in God's words (The Bible) because many will be lost following the wrong way, as the scripture says only a FEW will find the way. God loves us all (John 3:16) and for that I am sure He loves my family, especially my grandma. He knows everything and for this reason I leave her in His caring and loving hands. She loves and follows God daily and that gives me asurrance.